korean food craving satisfied

here are some of the stuff i really liked from this afternoon's foodtrip with some friends from work:

some1's copying me

some1's really copying me...

who cares if she's consciously denying it to herself in secret or not. it's plagiarism of a darker kind. we're talking about a person's individuality here.

it's high school of me to bother, i know, but i was just finally becoming content and at peace with how i am and with being different... or weird or unique or whatever.

most of my life i spent trying to figure myself out and now that i know what i'm like better, here comes 1 accidental discovery that makes me feel as violated as that experience of almost getting raped in a mall. i'm reacting like this because i feel like i have to protect this part of myself, no matter how not-very-special it is.

and no, i'm not delusional or imagining stuff. for some very strange reason, i just feel and know certain things and sometimes even see through people clearly (have you heard of HSPs?). i'm pretty sure about this 1.

plastic eyes

my eyes are looking very black and cold and empty and fake today. i'm not sure why but it just bothers me.

what is wrong with him???

i tell him i hate him and he tells me he loves me; i break up with and lash out on him, and he sends me a big unbirthday box of several nice things that are not and will never be meaningless...

he included a letter to my parents, too, and it's heartbreakingly beautiful and bittersweet.

my eyes burn. i still honestly don't know how to look at these presents lying around me. i ought to be grateful as i'm very rarely given gifts; at the same time, i ought to be ashamed of myself for hurting the person who seems to care about me the most.

yah, i suck.

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on a lighter note...

our new amah, who received the package, had no idea who "ace" was. lol! my parents obviously gave me too many 1st names.

TGIF

we had a lot of fun just hanging out at a tea house after work.








then we drove to another hidden place for drinks to drown our sorrows.





part of me wanted to get drunk for the 1st time but i was already falling fast asleep after a yummy black russian and a frozen margarita in the wrong glass (lol!). so i decided to just go home early to do zzzz time after a grand time with great company.