1 attack back

they recently moved everybody to the new wing and my new workspace happens to be a small box next to a big windowless wall. i was fine until work began and i realized how contrastingly dark my cubicle was with the bright computer screen.

it wasn't my intention to start crying and freaking out, but the walls were quietly closing down on me. my chest hurt; i couldn't breathe as the room spun; and i started shaking like a chihuahua.

either nobody knew how to help or my colleagues thought i was only being weird. i was really losing my mind in that box work bound me to, so i just drugged myself to numb me... and ended up disoriented and dizzy from a "slight overdose".

some people may not know what i'm yapping about, why i've never been so stressed at the new job until today. i'm honestly tired of caring about what others think and having to explain why stuff like this happen to me sometimes. i've always been alone in all this anyway.



now at 1 of my favorite sweets shop. by chance, it's close to where i had to be for an appointment after my shift.

comfort after a scary day at work is in a warm brownie cup, et al.!

visiting the little prince

my cute godson is the reason why i smell a bit like a baby despite being covered in milk, saliva, sugar cookie crumbs, and sweat.



we had a great time just hanging out with each other as mommy (my childhood best friend) was out. we ran, rolled on the floor, jumped up and down, hopped, ate colorful cookies i brought, laughed, and spun around and round.



it took him minutes to get used to me again at 1st...



but when i had to leave, he wouldn't even let me put him down or give him back to his nanny.

precious, isn't he?

brunch and tea: happy colors

family fun

a friend's mom invited me to visit them today. her dad just arrived from korea and wanted to meet me, too. i got them cute early valentine's day cakes from a favorite pastry shop just like this 1:



it's the least i can do for a friend's family who always feeds me, thinks i'm funny and treats me well. insisting i eat out with them is solid proof of my 1st claim.



after the big mexican lunch we drove to a karaoke place, where we sang in 3 to 4 languages.



the rating thingie was also really nice to me, giving me decent scores even if i can't sing... especially in korean! haha.

*~*~*~*

friend's amused dad: i want you to be my daughter-in-law.
me: eh? but your son's very young! he's in high school!!!

we laughed our bottoms off. good thing the poor boy wasn't there, and that he (the dad) was only joking... i think. ehe.

finally friday

yay, pikachu's back on my schedule!!! i don't mind working overtime everyday for a kid who secretly keeps me going, really.

and today wasn't half as bad as i thought it'd be. life may give me hell at times but i guess there'll always be fridays to look forward to.

as i'm quickly blogging this, i just ended a call for a special appointment next week and am just about to return to opening a big bag of junkfood to go with my eternally interrupted "vampire knight" marathon. haha.




oooh, i'm excited! the last anime series i really watched was "sailor moon" and it was, like, more than 10 years ago!

...whaaaa, i'm definitely having a 2nd childhood! i'm 22 and am still beginning to read manga and start watching cartoons again...! i have to admit, however, that these things are way more enjoyable than doing grown-up stuff i had to be doing since my 1st period! haha.

let go, ace, let go

so i had to say goodbye to a few of my precious students today, including my favorite pokémon. i always feared this day would come and that it'd arrive sooner than expected. but maybe there's really nothing he, his mom, my managers, and i can do about our conflicting schedules.

when i learned about the time/teacher change and about yesterday actually being our last day together, i imagined my whole world at work falling apart in my head. that kid gave me a reason to stick with teaching, despite being paid peanuts and a few better job offers in media.

but i must think of my other pokémons, too. i love all of them, even if the feeling's not always mutual! lol.

work will definitely be work without my pikachu (since he really loves the "pokémon" series, i decided to codename him that). i'm even already jealous of his new teacher who'll get to help shape a very special boy as he grows.

haay. what a week.

missing the old times

things were much simpler back then. and i miss every1.

what has this world come to?

a little bird told me that a younger girl who used to give me cute little notes in high school is in the hospital because of AIDS. i was like, "what?!?! when? how??? i just bumped into her last month!"

dumbfounding. i even immediately forgot all about stupid office politics (which, by the way, hit me hard in the head and stressed me much today).

at 1st everybody was getting pregnant by accident; then classmates started getting sexually transmitted infections; then friends were found to be your dads' or uncles' spoiled mistresses; then HIV spread out of call centers into the whole country; and now christian girls are getting AIDS???

everything... everything is... too sad!

eeek!

they found this big gecko under the car! poor squished thing.

PS: sorry for sharing the gore.

"project"

yesterday i found some good cloth and decided to play with it because i didn't have anything to do. here's something kindergarten i made for the house and am trying on to see if i should keep:



since our sewing machine's ancient and i'm half minimalist-half lazy, i didn't bother looking for pins, measuring tapes and other sewing thingamabobs that i don't even know how to use anyway. nyahaha. a pair of scissors, a needle, a ball of thread, 2 hands, and a lot of figuring out are okay... i guess.

hehe. what do you think: yay or nay?