1 of the reasons i have trouble sleeping is because i have trouble stilling my mind. giving yoga a go 3 years ago taught me that deliberately silencing my loud thoughts is key to getting rest. shhh-ing my brain tonight, however, is like waging war againts a powerful army of voices in my head.
there are just so many things buzzing inside this skull lately, running like a raging river and playing things like ipod on shuffle (lol!). and now beginning to feel the reality and urgency of it all, i can no longer ignore them. i've also run out of numbing prescription pills, old DVDs to keep me entertained, and time i've wasted being lost to the world and not living life.
how the great love of my life is far and has cancer; how i'm about to go broke and need to start looking for a new job soon; how i really wanna pass the foreign service exam tomorrow(!!!) because it'll get me closer to a dream-come-true—these things are eating me up as much as a few other heavy matters are.
some1—any1—out there please pray with and help me pray tonight/today?
Saturday, May 9
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Acey... I am sad to read that. Today I spoke with a lady on the bus and she said something that impressed me:
no use we make every effort to work if we do not have moments of pleasure and happiness because she worked too late and everything she has been getting sick, then it is advantageous to worry all the time life is to live fully, to feel raramante full but when I worth a lot to me. I hope it fits to you.
Is full!
You always talk about great sadness ... You feel happier or sadder?
thank you for sharing that, kenia. it's good advice from a stranger, noh? :D
i'm okay, dear. not that sad, really. hehe. :)
i myself have some occassional bouts with an overactive mind at night, acey, and all i do is give in to it by writing down the thoughts as they come to mind. i figured it helps my brain believe that the thought process is over because i translated the thought into a behavior or action (e.g. writing). sometimes, the crazy thoughts at night become inspiration to great ideas for my work.
try this. might work for you when your brain is hyperactive.
thanks for reminding me, barry. i have my journal lying around somewhere. :D
Hello friend!
I am passing by to wish you a great weekend!
When we were younger we thought life as fairy tales, that it always have happy endings... Until we passed childhood and we continously face trials of our existence.
Be strong Ms. Acey!
hi, rajesh! thanks. you, too.
kj, how true. and thank you, mate!!! i'll try. :D
I will pray for you. know that. the energy force of the world comes around and around and way over here and back around to you. I'll try to send you some positive vibes courtesy of the man upstairs.
I've doing yoga for four months and don't feel relax still... Like collapsingbarrycade said, write down anything that is in your mind when your mind being hyper. Hope you can sleep all right and find a job soon.
Sorry to hear things have been rough. I can sympathize, it's been rather rough around here as well. Give yourself some time to cool out and try to take it as easy as possible.
And remember, things have a tendency of working out better than you expect :-)
hi acey, this is kinda late but i hope you're feeling much better now. i agree with barry about writing down stuff that's in your mind coz it really helps (i also do the same thing especially when my thoughts crash at nighttime hehe)
be strong, ms. acey! am rooting for you! :)
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