i wish time would freeze

in a few hours the family'll travel somewhere else again, leaving me behind again and this time. i could already see myself looking out my office window at people who don't need to work on holidays having nice lives. lol. i'm obviously not ready to go back to my job waiting in gray cebu city.

if i had a fairy godmother or a genie or oprah, i'd really wish for time to pause so i could stay more, play with little cousins and their big dogs, drive around the countryside, play in the rain, explore the plantation, watch little wesley run around the place and bark at the fog outside, eat well, take naps, have short but decent conversations with my parents, and so on.

sadness is also not getting to horse ride, thanks to a crazy work schedule, and because it rains on my days off.